Quitting second time around.

16 Oct 2006
I was a smoker for 15 years, smoking a packet a day. When I found out I was expecting our first child I gave up that day and did so for 8 years. It took 5 of those years before I could say I definately never felt like a cigarette. One night I decided to join my husband and have just one! A bit of adult time! It taste disgusting but that one a week became ten a day in no time at all. I had to hide from my children as I was so ashamed. I had always told them I gave up because I wanted to be healthy and have healthy children. My eight year old caught me having a cigarette and cried because he thought I was going to die and I had lied to him. This still was not enough to quit. Then one day two weeks ago my husband and I decided enough was enough and quit. It is very hard and the first week I could not stop thinking about anything else. I just went for a walk each time the cravings were strong and did not sit still or sleep properly. The third week has been much easier yet I am really cranky. I know this will pass. I thought it would be easier after having already quit before for so long but it was just as hard. I now feel proud and relieved not having to lie to my children anymore. This quit line has been a life saver during tough times.

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